Why Does It Happen?

I am told that the medical profession do not know the cause of SD. I am a firm believer in 'thoughts create things' and I am sure that deep down we are all responsible for the situations and medical conditions that afflict us. My speech pathologist and doctor assure me that I am not responsible and I accept that I am not consciously creating the SD condition however the condition has arisen from somewhere! I haven't had a chance to start reading Dr Sarno's book on 'mindbody connection' however I think from what little I have read from the backcover that I agree with his beliefs.

Yesterday I was accidently locked out of the house by my partner, he was going off to a meeting and I was out the back sweeping the leaves. He opened the back door to say goodbye but he locked it as well as the laundry door, therefore I couldn't get back into the house. This was at approx. 9.45am, I had a lunch engagement at 12.30, north of the city. Our house is totally closed off at the back and no neighbours within earshot. I did have access to the garage but the garage door was closed. Luckily a few weeks ago when the garage repair man came I watched him working on the mechanism and I asked him about the switch on the motor that opens the door. There I was in the dim garage (the light switch is on the inside) looking for something to stand on so that I could reach the switch, I pressed it and presto the door opened. Now the front door was open because we have a separate access to the home office upstairs, where I discovered one of our employees was working and then at least I was able to use the phone. I called my partner who said he wouldn't be back for another 45 minutes, so I just had to wait. He returned over an hour later with no apology! I was an hour late for lunch with my friend.

I put the time to good use by watering the plants, cleaning the car and then washing the office floor. I had intended to use these couple of hours to clean up the house in preparation for entertaining guests for dinner. The day ended up being a little stressful.

I gave the situation some thought and found that I was really angry deep down but I just didn't say anything when my partner arrived home, I didn't know what to say! I would rather avoid conflict I think. What made me angry was that if I had been the one to lock my partner in, then that would have been a different matter, I would not have heard the end of it. Do these repressed emotions contribute to spasmodic dysphonia?